I lost my virginity to my cousin. How wierd is that?

I was 17 and I never had a serious relationship to that point and we only saw once a year if that at Christmas and we never talked until one year we did and...hit it off I guess and started having sex a couple months later and continued to do so for a couple years. Almost got her pregnant once :-/ Now I'm not hillbilly or a redneck if anyone thinks that. Obviously our family didn't approve especially since her parents are hardcore Christians but at the time it just seemed right at the time but I'm almost 21 now and look back and go...man what the **** is wong with you if that spent earn me a white trash black belt idk what does. Can I get some input on this